Welcome 2012!

It's time to step into a brand new year... another opportunity to renew ourselves, transform the self and make way for a better future. No radical promises, no silly resolutions and no extraordinary hopes. Only one plain objective - Stick to the basics! Do everything I possibly can to give myself a better & happier life...

Here's the quote for the day ---

What's within your control?

Identify that and fully execute to the best of your ability.

It's the best thing you can do.

It's the only thing you can do.

And if you concentrate on doing that, chances are pretty good the stuff

out there will come close to the way you want them to, if not better.

A teary-eyed goodbye...

Chitthi na koi sandesh.... Jaane woh kaun sa desh... Jahan tum chale gaye...

I still haven't come to terms with the news that my utmost favorite Jagjit Singh ji is no more... I dont recall any particular time or date, nor a specific song that got me hooked to his ghazals. I feel as if I have been in love with his voice for ever now.
Unlike many others, I would not say that his songs defined any particular phase or moment of my life. To me, his music & his beautiful voice is an inseparable aspect of my life and will always remain so. His music has been my constant companion & certainly the most favorite one as well in my best & worst times. Be it agony or romance, his mellifluous voice lent beautiful expression to all kinds of poetry and gave it a soul of its own. Everytime I heard his music, it moved & touched my soul in ways that I can never put down in words. While I was often moved to tears listening to his ghazals, he also managed to tickle me with his romantic renditions... There was none like him & there will never be another Jagjit Singh. As he undoubtedly is the king of ghazals!
I had long harbored a strong desire to witness his live performance atleast once in my life. About two months back, I booked the tickets for his show on 23rd September in Mumbai. On this very fateful day, he suffered a brain haemmorhage attack. I returned from the show sorely disappointed but with the hope that I would surely book tickets for Jagjit Singh's next performance. Alas! It was never meant to be...

Feeling blue...

The new year hasn't really kicked off with a great start... The first week into the year had me suffering from a bad case of cold & sinusitis. I still haven't fully recovered from it. I get these bad headaches every now & then, alongwith a complete lack of energy. More than the physical aspect, it is the mental stress which makes me feel awfully low.

This year has begun with a whole lot of expectations. It is my chance to revive my (long-ago deceased) career. Despite having done immensely well in school, college & postgraduate studies I have always doubted myself. I dont know the reason but I totally lack in confidence particularly with respect to job & career aspect. Each day I live with the nagging thought of being a complete failure. I really dont know when this phase will end but I sure wish it would happen really soon.

Starting with your own business venture definitely sounds exciting. But I know this path wont be easy at all. It is going to be fraught with several challenges. The foremost requirement is that I must be strong & confident to overcome all obstacles. It means I have to be someone I am not. To be a different person altogether. Is it really possible to drastically transform oneself??? Or am I being unrealistic???

(16/01/2011)