Chitthi na koi sandesh.... Jaane woh kaun sa desh... Jahan tum chale gaye...
I still haven't come to terms with the news that my utmost favorite Jagjit Singh ji is no more... I dont recall any particular time or date, nor a specific song that got me hooked to his ghazals. I feel as if I have been in love with his voice for ever now.
Unlike many others, I would not say that his songs defined any particular phase or moment of my life. To me, his music & his beautiful voice is an inseparable aspect of my life and will always remain so. His music has been my constant companion & certainly the most favorite one as well in my best & worst times. Be it agony or romance, his mellifluous voice lent beautiful expression to all kinds of poetry and gave it a soul of its own. Everytime I heard his music, it moved & touched my soul in ways that I can never put down in words. While I was often moved to tears listening to his ghazals, he also managed to tickle me with his romantic renditions... There was none like him & there will never be another Jagjit Singh. As he undoubtedly is the king of ghazals!
I had long harbored a strong desire to witness his live performance atleast once in my life. About two months back, I booked the tickets for his show on 23rd September in Mumbai. On this very fateful day, he suffered a brain haemmorhage attack. I returned from the show sorely disappointed but with the hope that I would surely book tickets for Jagjit Singh's next performance. Alas! It was never meant to be...
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Feeling blue...
The new year hasn't really kicked off with a great start... The first week into the year had me suffering from a bad case of cold & sinusitis. I still haven't fully recovered from it. I get these bad headaches every now & then, alongwith a complete lack of energy. More than the physical aspect, it is the mental stress which makes me feel awfully low.
This year has begun with a whole lot of expectations. It is my chance to revive my (long-ago deceased) career. Despite having done immensely well in school, college & postgraduate studies I have always doubted myself. I dont know the reason but I totally lack in confidence particularly with respect to job & career aspect. Each day I live with the nagging thought of being a complete failure. I really dont know when this phase will end but I sure wish it would happen really soon.
Starting with your own business venture definitely sounds exciting. But I know this path wont be easy at all. It is going to be fraught with several challenges. The foremost requirement is that I must be strong & confident to overcome all obstacles. It means I have to be someone I am not. To be a different person altogether. Is it really possible to drastically transform oneself??? Or am I being unrealistic???
(16/01/2011)
This year has begun with a whole lot of expectations. It is my chance to revive my (long-ago deceased) career. Despite having done immensely well in school, college & postgraduate studies I have always doubted myself. I dont know the reason but I totally lack in confidence particularly with respect to job & career aspect. Each day I live with the nagging thought of being a complete failure. I really dont know when this phase will end but I sure wish it would happen really soon.
Starting with your own business venture definitely sounds exciting. But I know this path wont be easy at all. It is going to be fraught with several challenges. The foremost requirement is that I must be strong & confident to overcome all obstacles. It means I have to be someone I am not. To be a different person altogether. Is it really possible to drastically transform oneself??? Or am I being unrealistic???
(16/01/2011)
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Some more pain & Little hope!
It doesnt get any better.. Does it? I was hoping today would be a perfectly good start to the life ahead.. it would be the first step of fulfilling our dreams of love success and a beautiful life together.
It feels terrible not getting what you'v worked so hard for and very well knowing that you deserve every bit of it. I dont know what I can do to ease your pain.. I wish there was something I could do. It would'v helped ease the pain & guilt that I am carrying within. I feel really really awful...
I dont want to dwell on these feelings any longer coz I know they dont help. They only make matters worse. But everytime in the past when I'v buried the nonsensical stuff and tried to move ahead it hasn't yielded any results..
Not taking Past as any indicator for the Future...I will move on... I am going to make myself emerge stronger & more determined.. and next time I am sure things will definitely go our way!! Amen!!
(05/01/2010)
It couldn't have been a worse start to the year...
There are certain days that tend to be bad..some really bad...but there are some days that become landmarks in your life, for all the trauma & pain they bring to your life..
Its never easy to handle the bitter truths of your life... and particularly when it is handed over to you by the ones you love and that too in the most hurting manner ever..
I know I've made mistakes and a whole lot of them. I know I've done things I shouldn't have.. I also know that I haven't done things that I really should have. I know every bit of it --- I have regretted it, I have suffered it, I have paid for it & I probably will pay for it the rest of my life.
They may be right in making me realise it, making me suffer all over again through their harsh words. But I really don't have the emotional strength to handle it... Still I have to. I dont have a choice!
But it sure hurts like hell...
Things won't be the same anymore. I know I won't be the same person anymore, for better or for worse. Coz I took it in my stride once but not this time... I am going to embrace your words and let them ring in my ears each day, till the last moment of my life and make sure I do full justice to them.
There are certain days that tend to be bad..some really bad...but there are some days that become landmarks in your life, for all the trauma & pain they bring to your life..
Its never easy to handle the bitter truths of your life... and particularly when it is handed over to you by the ones you love and that too in the most hurting manner ever..
I know I've made mistakes and a whole lot of them. I know I've done things I shouldn't have.. I also know that I haven't done things that I really should have. I know every bit of it --- I have regretted it, I have suffered it, I have paid for it & I probably will pay for it the rest of my life.
They may be right in making me realise it, making me suffer all over again through their harsh words. But I really don't have the emotional strength to handle it... Still I have to. I dont have a choice!
But it sure hurts like hell...
Things won't be the same anymore. I know I won't be the same person anymore, for better or for worse. Coz I took it in my stride once but not this time... I am going to embrace your words and let them ring in my ears each day, till the last moment of my life and make sure I do full justice to them.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
How to make this year a happier one...
(Article by Jitendra Nagpal)
"To live happy is an inward power of the soul" said Aristotle, the great Greek thinker. We often find it difficult to derive happiness from our everyday life, so full of stress and worries. However, the fact is that happiness lies deep within us, in the very core of our being, not in an external object.
It is, thus, a state of well-being, a balance of physical, psychological, social and spiritual self. A state in which our mind's habitual agitation is calmed.
We tell ourselves ou life will be better when we have a bigger car, when we can take a vacation... The truth is, there is no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, then when? Challenges will always be there. Admit as much and decide to be happy in spite of it all. Here are some simple initiatives you can take.
Focus on personal goals :
Cultivating your spirituality may uncover what is most meaningful in your life. By clarifying what is important to you, you can eliminate stress by focusing less on the unimportant things that can sometimes consume you.
When you feel part of a greater whole, you realise that you are not responsible for everything that happens in life. You can share the burden of tough times as well as the joys of life's blessings with those around you.
Whether you find spirituality in a church, mosque or temple or in your family, or in walks with a friend through nature, this sharing of spiritual expression can help build relationships. Research indicates that people who consider themselves spiritual are often better able to cope with stress and have higher personal goals.
Use Adaptive Thinking :
Realistic thinking involvves reasoning, which helps us adjust to the real world. It also includes the strengths and the weaknesses within one's self and the ability to cope with these.
Our positive th inking can put us on the right path ad change our personality. Thinking, therefore is very important for learning, understanding, shaping external matters or our mind.
Develop Relationships :
Happiness begins with our relationship with ourselves and is nurtured by our ties with others and our sense of purpose in life.The best ways to lutivate happiness are to improve self esteem and to foster closeness with those who are important to us.
Reflect inward :
Create fond memories. Keep a journal to help you express your feelings and record your progress. Seek out a trusted advisor or friend - preferably someone who has had similar life experiencs - who can help you discover what is important to you. Sometimes others have insights that you have not.
Read inspirational stories or essays to help you evaluate different philosophies of life. Talk to people whose happiness you admire. Be open to new experiences. Do something different. If what you are doing is causing you problems, do someething else.
Playing video games getting in the way of relationships? Spending money you do not ear? Identifying a problem is a good first step. Then go and do something else. If you find you cannot do something else, you may be addicted, in which case the something different coud include counselling.
If you cannot specify a problem but still cannot call yourself happy, then use some mental techniques to enjoy life more - develop effectiv elistening and communication skills and stop thinking about things that are bothering you and direct your mind to things you enjoy, and you may find surprise solutions popping up in your head; pray or meditate, whatever makes you feel calmer, stronger; focus on enjoying the present instead of fretting over the future.
"To live happy is an inward power of the soul" said Aristotle, the great Greek thinker. We often find it difficult to derive happiness from our everyday life, so full of stress and worries. However, the fact is that happiness lies deep within us, in the very core of our being, not in an external object.
It is, thus, a state of well-being, a balance of physical, psychological, social and spiritual self. A state in which our mind's habitual agitation is calmed.
We tell ourselves ou life will be better when we have a bigger car, when we can take a vacation... The truth is, there is no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, then when? Challenges will always be there. Admit as much and decide to be happy in spite of it all. Here are some simple initiatives you can take.
Focus on personal goals :
Cultivating your spirituality may uncover what is most meaningful in your life. By clarifying what is important to you, you can eliminate stress by focusing less on the unimportant things that can sometimes consume you.
When you feel part of a greater whole, you realise that you are not responsible for everything that happens in life. You can share the burden of tough times as well as the joys of life's blessings with those around you.
Whether you find spirituality in a church, mosque or temple or in your family, or in walks with a friend through nature, this sharing of spiritual expression can help build relationships. Research indicates that people who consider themselves spiritual are often better able to cope with stress and have higher personal goals.
Use Adaptive Thinking :
Realistic thinking involvves reasoning, which helps us adjust to the real world. It also includes the strengths and the weaknesses within one's self and the ability to cope with these.
Our positive th inking can put us on the right path ad change our personality. Thinking, therefore is very important for learning, understanding, shaping external matters or our mind.
Develop Relationships :
Happiness begins with our relationship with ourselves and is nurtured by our ties with others and our sense of purpose in life.The best ways to lutivate happiness are to improve self esteem and to foster closeness with those who are important to us.
Reflect inward :
Create fond memories. Keep a journal to help you express your feelings and record your progress. Seek out a trusted advisor or friend - preferably someone who has had similar life experiencs - who can help you discover what is important to you. Sometimes others have insights that you have not.
Read inspirational stories or essays to help you evaluate different philosophies of life. Talk to people whose happiness you admire. Be open to new experiences. Do something different. If what you are doing is causing you problems, do someething else.
Playing video games getting in the way of relationships? Spending money you do not ear? Identifying a problem is a good first step. Then go and do something else. If you find you cannot do something else, you may be addicted, in which case the something different coud include counselling.
If you cannot specify a problem but still cannot call yourself happy, then use some mental techniques to enjoy life more - develop effectiv elistening and communication skills and stop thinking about things that are bothering you and direct your mind to things you enjoy, and you may find surprise solutions popping up in your head; pray or meditate, whatever makes you feel calmer, stronger; focus on enjoying the present instead of fretting over the future.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
"कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती"
An amazingly inspirational poem by Dr. Harivansh Rai Bachchan
लहरों से डरकर नौका पार नही होती ।
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
नन्ही चींटी जब दाना लेकर चलती है ।
चढ़ती दीवारों पर सौ बार फिसलती है ।
मन का विश्वास रगों में साहस भरता है ।
चढ़कर गिरना गिरकर चढ़ना न अखरता है ।
मेहनत उसकी बेकार हर बार नही होती ।
कोशिश करनेवालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
डूबकियां सिन्धु में गोताखार लगता है ।
जा जा कर खली हाथ लौटकर आता है ।
मिलते न सहेज ही मोटी गहरे पानी में ।
बढ़ता दूना विश्वास इसी हैरानी में ।
मुट्ठी उसकी खाली हर बार नही होती ।
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
असफलता एक चुनौती है स्वीकार करो ।
क्या कमी रह गई देखो और सुधार करो ।
जब तक न सफल हो नींद चैन को त्यागो तुम ।
संघर्षो का मैदान छोड़ मत भागो तुम ।
कुछ किया बिना ही जय जयकार नही होती ।
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
--- डॉ हरिवंशराइ बच्चन
लहरों से डरकर नौका पार नही होती ।
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
नन्ही चींटी जब दाना लेकर चलती है ।
चढ़ती दीवारों पर सौ बार फिसलती है ।
मन का विश्वास रगों में साहस भरता है ।
चढ़कर गिरना गिरकर चढ़ना न अखरता है ।
मेहनत उसकी बेकार हर बार नही होती ।
कोशिश करनेवालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
डूबकियां सिन्धु में गोताखार लगता है ।
जा जा कर खली हाथ लौटकर आता है ।
मिलते न सहेज ही मोटी गहरे पानी में ।
बढ़ता दूना विश्वास इसी हैरानी में ।
मुट्ठी उसकी खाली हर बार नही होती ।
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
असफलता एक चुनौती है स्वीकार करो ।
क्या कमी रह गई देखो और सुधार करो ।
जब तक न सफल हो नींद चैन को त्यागो तुम ।
संघर्षो का मैदान छोड़ मत भागो तुम ।
कुछ किया बिना ही जय जयकार नही होती ।
कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नही होती ।
--- डॉ हरिवंशराइ बच्चन
Sunday, November 22, 2009
How about a Reality Check??
Few days back, the tagline of an article in the newspaper supplement caught my eye. It went like this - "If your family doesn't deserve your best behaviour, who does?"
This caption managed to perfectly capture the vague thoughts running in my mind off late.
The Article went on to say - "A big stress factor in today's families is that while we take pains to excel at people management at our workplaces , we forget all those rules and niceties when it comes to our homes. I've seen many friends and colleagues who put a lot of effort in self-grooming, both in terms of outward appearance and behaviour, to be the best at their work...but the moment they reach back home in the evening, turn into totally different people. Mostly under a lame excuse that 'At least I can be my true self in front of my own family and in my personal space'. Well, noone's asking you to be fake, my friend, but tell me, dont' your loved ones deserve to see a side of you that you've carefully developed to leave a good impression on others."
Isn't this so very true & well applicable to each one of us??? How wonderfully we take care to create a remarkably perfect person in front of people who don't really matter to us... and just how conveniently we manage to ocassionally/frequently hurt, abuse & harass those who are an inseparable and indispensable part of our lives.
We mostly extend the 'I can be myself at home' argument to ourselves , especially after an unwarranted & unreasonable bout of misbehaviour, simply to save us all the guilt. But instead, aren't we guilty of having emotionally wounded our loved ones???
We often hide the latter variant of guilt under the guise of another line of thought - that my family does (and they most certainly should) understand any kind of inappropriate behaviour on my part, almost as an unspoken obligation. Could we be any more wrong???? It might be their responsibility to support us , to embrace our sorrows, to comfort our pain, to listen to the constant woes, or to deal with the childish tantrums but it definitely isn't their duty to again & again bear any kind of impolite trash. Our bottled up frustrations & pent up anger need not always poison its way into the utmost precious relationships.
Its imperative that we sit down and introspect and make a promise to be the bestest person to all those who love us coz 'if they don't deserve my best behavior, who does'.... Let us transform the anger into love... replace frowns with beautiful smiles... reform the perpetual nagging into gratitude...and turn the curses into kisses... :)
This caption managed to perfectly capture the vague thoughts running in my mind off late.
The Article went on to say - "A big stress factor in today's families is that while we take pains to excel at people management at our workplaces , we forget all those rules and niceties when it comes to our homes. I've seen many friends and colleagues who put a lot of effort in self-grooming, both in terms of outward appearance and behaviour, to be the best at their work...but the moment they reach back home in the evening, turn into totally different people. Mostly under a lame excuse that 'At least I can be my true self in front of my own family and in my personal space'. Well, noone's asking you to be fake, my friend, but tell me, dont' your loved ones deserve to see a side of you that you've carefully developed to leave a good impression on others."
Isn't this so very true & well applicable to each one of us??? How wonderfully we take care to create a remarkably perfect person in front of people who don't really matter to us... and just how conveniently we manage to ocassionally/frequently hurt, abuse & harass those who are an inseparable and indispensable part of our lives.
We mostly extend the 'I can be myself at home' argument to ourselves , especially after an unwarranted & unreasonable bout of misbehaviour, simply to save us all the guilt. But instead, aren't we guilty of having emotionally wounded our loved ones???
We often hide the latter variant of guilt under the guise of another line of thought - that my family does (and they most certainly should) understand any kind of inappropriate behaviour on my part, almost as an unspoken obligation. Could we be any more wrong???? It might be their responsibility to support us , to embrace our sorrows, to comfort our pain, to listen to the constant woes, or to deal with the childish tantrums but it definitely isn't their duty to again & again bear any kind of impolite trash. Our bottled up frustrations & pent up anger need not always poison its way into the utmost precious relationships.
Its imperative that we sit down and introspect and make a promise to be the bestest person to all those who love us coz 'if they don't deserve my best behavior, who does'.... Let us transform the anger into love... replace frowns with beautiful smiles... reform the perpetual nagging into gratitude...and turn the curses into kisses... :)
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